*Myhrddin

Smoky Smoky Smoky

Smoky ...

Well, I was on the patches and doing okay (relatively okay).

When you're trying to convince yourself to quit it's easy to turn a really lame excuse for having one into a super reason. *shaking head* So, I'm now trying to psych myself up again to stick on another patch and muster up some will power.

Please........ if you haven't smoked long and could take it or leave it still...... LEAVE IT, quit now and never have another.!!

Being that hindsight is better than 20/20 vision, I can only wish I'd read and given 30 seconds of thought years back to doing what I mention above. The longer you smoke the harder it gets. Once you become complacent about it and say .. we're all gonna die and something will kill all of us one way or another is when you begin to step over the threshold of could've easily quit to the place where its Very difficult to stop.

Stop Now while its easy to quit.!!

Okys, Have a great day.!
God Bless.!!!

When the pain gets to 11 on a scale from 1 to 10 with a migraine.

Recently I went through another day of searing pain with the migraines I have on a daily basis. It isn't really plural since mine do not stop anymore, only the medication keeps it from constantly being at a level where I can't even use my computer. Untreated, they're normally somewhat tolerable although I'm unable to work or see well .. become extremely limited in what I can eat or drink .. even to the point where I have to take mini-brushings several times before I get my teeth clean because of the nausea and enhanced gag reflex.

Since none of the normal migraine or preventative medications work on me, my doctor is trying out the 2nd anti-seizure medication to see if it will eventually calm down the processes that are out of control in my brain. I'm not yet at a level where the medication is having any effect and it can be very frustrating since the gradual build-up of dosages is taking months to do. Twice so far I've had to step down to the previous dose because of odd things which have occurred once the new dosage levels saturate my system.

Thank goodness that none of the MRI's have shown any weaknesses developing in the walls of the blood flow in my brain yet --or any unusual structures or buildups. Still, when the pain gets to level 11 on a scale from 1 to 10, I get scared. On my 11 the only thing going through my mind is hoping it will stop & even if it meant to go ahead and have a severe aneurism. No, I don't have any sort of death wish and wouldn't want that to happen but, at 11, it feels like its on the verge of happening. And none of the mental tricks I use to cope work at all, at 11 I can't even pray other than to mentally say to God, "Thy will be done" and, of course, "make it stop".

I'm back on emergency meds now to keep it semi-controlled while I'm gradually building up to a level that might help of the anti-seizure drug and my body is recovering from the strained abdominal muscles that happened while it was bad bad. I wouldn't wish this on anyone.. not ever. There have been times that I'd flippantly wished someone I know who just doesn't understand in the least what I'm going through.. well, wished that they'd have just one migraine so they'd know. But, no, I don't wish that on anyone.

So, I wish you good health, salvation and happiness.!
Until later, Myr
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With so much talent and potential for a great future, it'd be a shame to see one more tragic end come about that was avoidable.

It's a Like-Hate thing.

I'm tired of it ...a.n.d... I still like to do it.
Here at the start of a new year I want to want to stop smoking.
*shakes head* You'd think having a family member die from it.. well, that it'd be a strong motivation for change. I'm one of those who can hardly breathe in a car when someone is puffin' away on a cigarette, until I light one too - then it doesn't bother me anymore.

The last time I quit 'em I had psyched myself up for it just right. Wasn't having such a terrible time of it getting past the cravings each time they reared their ugly little heads. I've just got to get back on that mental spot again, wherever it went.

We do things we don't want to sometimes and this is my Achilles heel. Ever feel like an oxy-moron.? *laughing* Well, I desire to want to quit again.

Lets see how it goes, or not.

Tried that rx bit with the pills they're advertising now -- made my migraines 2x intense.!

We've come back to get
something we left behind
years ago ---------------> Your Wallet.!